Today

So after about a week of my new cut, I am really loving it. I have officially decided that my hair looks best short. Maybe I'll just get a really long wig if I get an urge for length again! HA! It's cold and rainy today BLAH! Yesterday Chris brought an ungodly amount of sugary pastries to the studio so needless to say I had a day full of sugar. I mean that literally. I didn't have ANY real food yesterday..oh wait I did for breakfast. I had a bowl of cereal, a small manog strawberry protein shake,1 lg piece of blueberry pie, half of a cinnimon roll, 1 lemon bar, 1 really fat pumpkin custard bar, a dark chocolate almond zone protein bar (not bad but still), and a wheat wrap with organic (so less sugar) peanut butter and protein...this was a really yummy and not so bad for you meal. I haven't had that much sugar in a REALLY long time. Needless to say I couldn't sleep last night. I had choreography styling in my head all night. We scrapped like half of the choreography yesterday...I like to think of it as a good thing. We're at a point where we really know what we have that fits us and what doesn't...I look at that as progression. Sometimes I really realize how far behind him I am and that is frustrating but I quickly divert my mind. If I think about it too long I think I could slip into a deep depression! ha! When there's something I'm not doing correct, I want to be able to fix immediately because I hate to be the one holding us back from progressing. Poor guy...hope he doesn't give up on me! I wish I had had more proper training from the get go of my dancing. I need to find a way to practice just fundamentals and technique...it's so hard to do it on my own and NO WAY would I expect to work on that with chris. That is my mission for this week...finding a solution...and finding more students!!!

Enough about that. So in about a month or two Britt and I will be completely debt free!!! YEAH! Such a huge weight lifted! Hopefully we will get into our own home soon..so back in debt we'll be but a mortgage isn't so bad.

Random thought: I wonder if I could totally switch out my furniture on craigslist??

IT's DONE

Ok so the decision was made! I cut my hair yesterday. It is a little shorter than I asked for..ok about an inch but that's ok. I really wanted it to be a little more bobish..kinda long and piecy in front and stacked in the back but it is really more pixie like. Really not a fan of it in a T-shirt! I was contemplating being tinker bell for halloween, so I guess this completes it! HA! Although by halloween it will be more bobish! It's not any shorter than I've had before, and it will last me a little longer than usual. I had her do my roots too so I am waiting a few days to wash my hair ( so I don't dry it out) SO that means I can't really re-style it and add in my normal products so today it is not really doing what I want it to! BOO!

the real TOUGH decisions of life

So the decision to make is: to cut the hair or not to cut the hair. For those of you who have known me for any length of time, you know that I change my hair quite often..about every 6 months maximum. Well that six months is coming round and I'm getting the itch. So about 6 months ago I decided to grow my hair out. Well it is to the length that gets on my nerves. I am trying to do anything I can to get through it...curl it, pull it back..SOMETHING. Then I got to thinking...Why am I growing it out anyway? I do really like my hair long but does it really look better? I think I look younger with it long which is good especially if I want to continue doing some modeling/acting, but as a dancer I think it works better short. What to do...

I need to get some new photos for my portfolio. I need to make up my mind about my hair though before I do. AND being the perfectionist that I am, of course, I am not in the bodily shape that I want to be in, so I am also kind of stalling for that reason as well. My stalling just keeps me from getting it done and getting work!! I just need to do it!

So I actually got up early and ran yesterday! A miracle I know! I freakin hate to run unless I am in the kind of shape that I actually get a high from it. Getting into that shape really isn't fun, and I'm all about the fun things in life. I didn't really run for all that long, but I'm feeling it today. I know that is a sign that I need to do it more..maybe if I had a running buddy. I just have to think about what I'll look and feel like when I get into shape from running. It really is worth all the pain and suffering!